As you know I signed up to participate in a triathlon in July of 2012. For me the training for the bike portion will not be too difficult, but the run will be a little and the swim no doubt the hardest. In prep for this event through the months of December and January I will be focusing on my technique and also my body imbalances and weaknesses.
Today was a run day focusing on forefoot strike and high cadence. I decided to bring my iPod along with me since I had it just to see what it was like running with music in my ears. I loved it, it was very distracting and silenced lots of the thoughts I have during my runs. However this distraction took away from my ability to pay attention to my running form and also my pace. I am supposed to be keeping it between 8 and 9 minute per mile pace, well I found myself a few times at about 6 and a half minute per mile and had to slow down and refocus. Ugh I was driving myself crazy with this constant up and down pace, and finally had to slow it to a walk to regain my composure and change the play list to a slightly slower beat bunch of songs.
After readjusting my music selection I was able to get into a nice rhythm and focus on my goals for the day. Well me and my stinking AAADD (Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder) got all into the play list and my mind started wandering again. This time however it was me applying what one particular songs lyrics were saying to me and how I was comparing it to my life. The song was by Natasha Bedingfield called Unwritten....
I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovation
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten, yeah
Oh, oh
I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah yeah
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
the rest still unwritten
(Gospel)
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open *****
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open *****
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten.............................
WOW! While listening to this song I found my inspiration for my life, for my work, for this triathlon, for so many things. Far too long I have lived in the past, memories I can't let go of, relationships I don't want to leave behind, and hiding my true self from the world just because I am afraid someone might not like it. Well the lyrics and the tune of this song just hit me and I feel renewed, ready to write that next chapter in my book of life, ready to end my last chapter to close the page but not forget my experiences that got me to today.
Needless to say when all these feeling started rushing in yeah I will admit it I started crying. Then to add to it my eyes got all blurry and I couldn't see the trail well and ran into a tree branch and cut and bruised my knee. BUT I didn't fall, I just kept going, crying, pushing, running, breathing...ready for my life to move forward.
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